I'd like to say I feel betrayed
But I knew it
I didn't know him very long compared to his friends
But I knew him the longest
Because when they were looking away
Ignoring the signs he was screaming
More comfortable in ignorance
I was seeing
I tried to let him tell me
and every time I utterd 'she'
I felt the air shudder
the way he lit up like a million lights, when someone called him 'dude' or didn't fall for his disguise
was hard to ignore
it was so bright
I won't deny I was in denial
At first
And then I'd make jokes hoping he'd know I wasn't joking
That I was here seeing him
My eyes were singing 'I see you, I see you'
but
The whore remembers pleasure
How it briefly visited the temple of her body
But never took up residence
Those memories of lust and desire are few and weak
The vibrant ones are of pain
And of the dull empty hours spent fulfilling wishes
Her body isn't her own
Because it can be bought
Her soul is the only thing left that she can call her own
is it even worth keeping?
the temple is still standing...
And although on some nights
The gold isn't worth the effort
The warmth always is
I'd like to say I feel betrayed
But I knew it
I didn't know him very long compared to his friends
But I knew him the longest
Because when they were looking away
Ignoring the signs he was screaming
More comfortable in ignorance
I was seeing
I tried to let him tell me
and every time I utterd 'she'
I felt the air shudder
the way he lit up like a million lights, when someone called him 'dude' or didn't fall for his disguise
was hard to ignore
it was so bright
I won't deny I was in denial
At first
And then I'd make jokes hoping he'd know I wasn't joking
That I was here seeing him
My eyes were singing 'I see you, I see you'
but
The whore remembers pleasure
How it briefly visited the temple of her body
But never took up residence
Those memories of lust and desire are few and weak
The vibrant ones are of pain
And of the dull empty hours spent fulfilling wishes
Her body isn't her own
Because it can be bought
Her soul is the only thing left that she can call her own
is it even worth keeping?
the temple is still standing...
And although on some nights
The gold isn't worth the effort
The warmth always is
I'm really feeling invisible lately.
I have a few friends.
Of course I'm still single and planning on passing away with many cats.
I hope I'm imagining things.
OMG I'm such a Newb. It's not like I'm taking this journal down for ages anyway so I decided to use it to thank the creator of the base I used.
http://dt8thd--pixels.deviantart.com/art/Nano-Base-Set-01-163260294?q=boost%3Apopular+nano+base&qo=0
....that's just a link to the base and whatnot, but check out the gallery ^^
Love<3